New Year - 208.5

Happy New Year! Well, hopefully this year was better than last year.

Summarizing:

-Had a crappy job where I was abused daily
- Gained 10 more pounds on top of the 30 that I managed to gain in 2007
- Got too drunk and almost ruined my 11 year marriage
- Depression advanced to the point where I needed medication
- Got fired.
- Took a knee jerk job at a dream company even though I'm not working in the right department for what I give a damn about.
- Moved from a big house in TX, to best friends house, to an awesome roommate situation, to a dark depressing apartment that for some reason I thought was great the first time I saw it. =-P
- My credit is trashed.

That about summarizes it.

So this year I really need to change. I'm on an anti-depressant and I'm in therapy. I've really tried to be nicer to people without letting myself be a doormat. But its hard to find the balance. My moods and emotions tend to rule my head sometimes. I'm trying to do something active several times a week. I'm taking lunch to work more often and eating her versus going out. I have my eye out for a better job in the industry I want to be in. Hopefully we can get out of the apartment and into something better.

I'm just tired of things not being the way I want them to be. I'm tired of compromising with my life, to turning to food for comfort, with being a couch potato. I'm tired of having no friends that live close to me. I need something drastic to happen in my life.

Weight: 208.5

2009-01-06 @ 11:19 a.m.
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