Lonely - 168

I must have NO muscle left. I accomplished a lot this weekend. I set up the guest room and I finished my exercise room. It looks awesome! I also used part of my bonus (I got an awesome bonus on Friday) to buy a desk and shelf for my home office. Tonight, I will finish that room and vaccuum the upstairs. The reason why I say I must have no muscle left is because I'm really hurting from all of the furniture moving. Plus, I gained 3 pounds over the weekend. And I thought I watched what I ate! I've been flipping off my scale a lot lately. It makes me feel better to give my scale the bird every once in awhile. I probably should be giving myself the bird for letting myself go. Ha ha...

I ordered a bunch of books from my book club. I'm going to start reading again. Maybe I can join a real book club that has meetings. Anything to meet some intelligent women. I'm SO lonely. I'm SO lonely that I talk to my husband about makeup. He's obviously not interested. I'm so lonely that I shop just to have someone to talk to. I'm so lonely that I've starting missing Holly... for no other reason than that I'm lonely. Looking at me, you wouldn't think lonely. Big house, nice car, great job, lots of responsibility, good marriage, two dogs, and a partridge in a pear tree. Nope... I'm lonely. I can now see why people who seemingly have it all, like Marilyn Monroe, can commit suicide. Just because there are a lot of people around you, doesn't mean you are any less lonely. Just because it looks like you have it all, doesn't make you less lonely. Loneliness sucks. Anyway, back to the books... I got "Stepford Wives," "Harry Potter and the Sorceror's Stone," "Banish your Butt, Belly and Thighs Forever," and a book about a girl who is on an airplane. She thinks the plane is going down, so she tells the man in the seat next to her all of her secrets. The man is the CEO of the company she works for. That one sounded really great. Reading books will also give me something to talk about and think about other than my own boring life. Sometimes, all a girl needs is a little break from reality.

All right, time to work some more. I can't wait until this new brand manager starts. I interviewed her. I definitely get along with her. Maybe I'll have a new lunch buddy.

Weight: 168 (AHHHHHHHH!)

2004-07-19 @ 10:33 a.m.
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