Study Starts Tomorrow - 172

Thanks to those who wrote asking if I'm ok. I'm all right... just depressed. But I'm about to get a big kick in the ass. My study kit came today. So, as of tomorrow, I am participating in a weight loss study. I'm 172 lbs right now. My goal is to lose 10% of my body weight or 17 lbs in two months. The company gave me a pedometer, a pill carrying case and a food diary. All I have to do is fulfill my part of the deal and actually eat right and exercise.

Basically, I have to take 3 pills before each meal and eat less than 2,000 cals a day. They'd like me to exercise at least 30 mins a day 3-4 times a week. And at least move a little throughout the day.

So I ran around the house and played model. I took pictures in my work clothes, pictures in a bikini (gross beyond belief), pictures in casual wear, and pictures in exercise clothes. I took shots in the dining room, parlor, living room, and bedroom. I have up close shots and full body shots... all showing what a big fatty I've become. God... I still look preggo. It's horrible. I'm sucking in and I look like I'm pushing my belly out. Way gross. Anyway... I'm motivated... so let's see how these herbal wonders work, right?

We got a dining set delivered last weekend. I have a lot of family coming for Thanksgiving. So we had to, of course, finish out the dining room and parlor so its presentable. It's going to be very nice. J has a wonderful menu planned. My mom, stepfather, J's mom, my aunt, two cousins and two kids as well as J and I are going to be here. So that's 10 people. Our table seats 8 and then we have a kiddie table.

I'm going to make a point to only weigh myself on Wednesday mornings. That way, I won't discourage myself by weighing every day. I have to be thin again. Every day I'm fat is just another reminder that I was pregnant. It's just too depressing for words sometimes.

Weight: 172

2004-11-16 @ 11:08 p.m.
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